Jaya

Börjar med att tacka för en suverän film. I 2 ½ h satt jag och njöt av bästa underhållning ever och bästa sällskapet ever. Läste häromdagen att filmen är ett perfekt slut på en perfekt serie. I couldn't agree more. Inombords satt jag med känslan this is the goodbye. Fastän storyn var perfekt för en singelkvinna så ville man ha ett lyckligt slut. Alla kvinnor förtjänar ett lyckligt slut.

And even though it was fiction it was real to me. Somehow I could find myself in Carries shoes. You put on the best you have, you try to impress with your makeup, you smile an innocent smile and think everything is ok but would just love to tell the world your not ok. A woman with a lot of love but without a happy ending. The perfect real lovestory is never as perfect as it might reveal to you. There are always things hidden when two people meet. There is a perfect moment, but as suddenly it appears, it disappears. For a moment there is happiness and next moment you stand alone not knowing what went wrong. The person you met brought a thought, a memory, a reminding to your life. And even though you pretent everything is ok you have to face the truth. The pain is the worst, one you think will break you into thousands of pieces... Somehow you will find the strenght, the strenght to move on, as the woman in the fairytale always does. And you will think this is for the best, yet you can not deny the pain you feel inside, the emptiness once was filled. 

This is for the best right? It was not what She had expected. It was totally different. It was a woman left on the altar not knowing what went wrong ... Its intention was to mix up Her life. A way for her to move on. She was so ready to take the next step. She was ready to mess up her life totally. She was ready to get involved for the first time in her life... How can something so wrong feel so right? How can something so totally perfect be So totally wrong... When she does not know why she was left alone and the worst, not knowing what happened ... 

It is time to move on, as hard as it might be ... It is something She has to do even though the pain has not mercy for her. There is nothing to appologize for, there is absolutely nothing. The fairytale had a perfect beginning, but the end does not exist at all. It made her open her eyes and move on, exactly what she needed right then ... 

So perfect, yet so wrong...